jameson's

过去让他过去

2012-01-30T19:01:00.000+08:00

看着自己爱过的人跟人家一起，那种感觉，就是怪怪。
有痛的，可惜的，觉得好像被刀割的感觉。

为什么呢？
我还是完全放不下？
泪水忍着。
累

我们都安静

2012-01-29T01:06:00.000+08:00

最近在fb看到一个蛮有意思的图片，写着：

“爱一个人不难，要你忘记一个你爱的人才是难。”

我们各自离别后，再见面却是冷静，沉默。
从你手中弄得眼镜，我们的对话好像陌生人般。

“你好吗？”
“还好。”
“没联络了，最近发生什么事啊？”
“就平平淡淡的过咯。”
“嗯。”

客气的对自己以前（现在）爱过的人。
其实心里面不敢再勇敢的说出来，因为怕伤害。
原来自己还是在黑暗里头逃不出。

约吃顿饭，都在品着桌上的那碟吃的，慢慢吃。
我们没说过一句，安静。
吃完，离别。

看着自己带着的眼镜，想起了你。
这情人节，祝你快乐。

2012 Prelude

2012-01-18T16:52:00.003+08:00

Is been a while I've not update with my blog...

Assignments, Relationship, Exams, Family... tons of thing happened in the year of 2011.

Just hope that I can improve myself in a better place and better year.

Wish you were here with me...

Stay tune.

Meeting an old friend

2011-06-04T09:57:00.000+08:00

I'm afraid what to talk with him after 6 years never been met before...

Seriously,

it is just so coincident and I never think before action,

and I promised him...

Think that's Him.

5 cents can buy a meal

2011-05-30T14:50:00.000+08:00

Quote from my God-brother Jason "Wah, you can tell your Korean friends that you can buy a meal "Kimchi Jyige" cost 5 cents..." Is actually they paying the big amount but need extra 5 cents to bill up... As I remembered I have a 5 cents coin in my wallet and I just pay to them.

As these two days I was in Tropicana staying with my God-sister, God-sister-in-law(future), and lovely God-parents. These two days were non-stop outing and my God-mom keep nagging to me that KL life is such a boring... And this makes me make up my mind what should I do after graduate and come out to work.

(1) shopping?
(2) clubbing?
(3) society/clubs (enjoying)?
(4) studying?
(5) facebook-ing?
(6) reading?
(7) planting? (not applicable if I'm staying condo)
(8) what else.... hmmmmm

Oh dear, I can't figure out what should I do...
Seriously, joining them these two days are much more tire than I going to have activities from my club/society.
Early in the morning wake up... I was tire as I just moved into a new place which normally people are not yet familiarise with the environment and hardly get sleep. At the end, I was very tire yet I went to their home around noon time. Guess what... KL famous of traffic JAM~!!! JAM~!!! all the way to their home took me an hour wasted sitting in the car which run slower than human walking speed.

Yet the main point is we went 3 places non stop after I joined them... first stop (Bangsar village for brunch~!)
second stop (wait before that TTDI for nice kacang putih) and (went to IKEA).... and walk walk walk... third place (Amcorp mall to meet their children and granddaughter Sarah Anne for dinner with hot and spicy kimchi soup)

Gosh, I've been sweating all the while I'm eating. Imagine that spicy hot pot with full of red color soup with vegetables, tofu, korean glutinuos cake, chicken meat, transparent noodles, and of course kimchi... My dear it is the best ever kimchi soup I've never tried before as my God-brother's wife recommended... Ish... Never regret that...

Guess long time I've not write up a blog so I just simply to write what I feel and what I did...
Somehow now I don't even remember what my objective of writing a blog... Hmmm...

Hmmm..... Hmmm.... Hmm....

Argh~! forget about it.... Let's take it a break... SLEEP~!

Youth

2011-04-15T10:39:00.000+08:00

I feel the youth from you,
and i love to be together with you,
and yet i missed my youth...

Day goes without returning...
how wish i can be young again and be together with you.
sigh...
i can only be just beside you to care of you so that you won't make the mistakes i did.

and thanks to be with me...

生命没有如果 "Make Each Day Count"

2011-04-05T01:00:00.000+08:00

尊敬的李医生，

谢谢你写了一本让我能够反省的一本书，

让我体会孝

体会传承

体会决定，等

就如题目

“生命没有如果”

或许

是我一直环绕着

逃不了那轮回的圈子

谢谢你

因为这本书也让我

体会

“爱”

~ 感恩 ~

一篇不孝/心里不平衡的宣言

2011-03-01T23:30:00.003+08:00

我很没有安全感，也心里不平衡了很久。我换上忧郁，恐惧。始终还是责任。一天到晚就是责任。为何你们的责任要我帮你们分担？你们把我生下来就你们应该啃这责任，不是推给我，我很无辜~！明知道未来会发生的为什么现在才要跟我说你们很辛苦？对我很不公平，无缘无故被一大堆责任包围，无言无奈中要啃下你们的东西，说跟这个跟那个，不然要我学这个学那个，我根本不是要这些，我要我会自动跟你们说。说怕教不到孩子，不是对自己找借口，要自己的孩子为这家争口气。这家我已经很累。一开始就对我这样，人家就可以选择，我却不能，我好累~！一只到晚就讲别人孝顺，孝顺是用口说的吗？我行孝不对，你们就说，给机会你们了解，你们却没时间，说我不体谅，现在说我走错，不是一次，都几次了，我是你们的儿子啊~！你们懂你的孩子怎样活着吗？是借着那些模型来解压，对他们说话，可怜吗？别人的孩子妈妈去世，说很可怜，我呢？别人的就当自己孩子也该有界限吧？我们不就只能帮的就那么支持，不是什么抱着做，你还有其他兄弟，为什么却你要抱着等到自己哭了对自己的孩子说要帮忙？你们哭了还问我懂不懂，我哭了你们懂吗？回家一次被人说一次。多话找来惹人骂，不说话就说没礼貌。这年来我很失望，家人不像家人，屋子当旅店，好冷~！现在你们要弄回去也不能让我突然删掉这些阴影。这年来，拍拖也不要，心爱的人让给别人，是谁让我这么做？你们啊~！读自己不喜欢的课系，死撑烂撑，又是为谁？你们啊~！说到自己的孩子一无是处，到现在才说要谈？为什么现在才说？你等我诉苦好几年？我更加等你们啊~！我还是孩子，你们大人主动，不是要孩子主动的吗？弟弟妹妹就有选择，我呢？你们受，我也一直收又受，很想说，可是你们摆的样子，那天才说要放下，还不是摆着跟我说权威？什么大人什么小孩子，如果这样不要父母啦~~！叫朋友不就是了嘛？好累，做人难，做孩子更难~！现在的我不是应该有这种你们的责任压力~！说专心，那就不应该打扰我~！你们要我不理佛堂我都听你们的，你们也听我的，你们的事你们自己承担吧，孝不孝也好，我会尽力，也不会是这个时候帮你们。你们自己想想你们对我说的话，给点负责任吧~！

A week

2010-12-27T15:37:00.003+08:00

Is a week by now,
and...
We are still not talking... :(

X'mas in my heart

2010-12-24T18:42:00.000+08:00

for you

X'mas eve

2010-12-24T09:00:00.000+08:00

Father, please let him always be safe

please let him be always happy

That's all I wanted most

Is a lonely x'mas guess

I planned not to go church

and friends going the place i don't want

but I got no one to date with

Staring at the screen

hoping someone date me

Day 4

2010-12-23T09:19:00.000+08:00

Is the 4th day you didn't talk to me.

Yet I won't give up giving my concern to you.

Guess building up trust needs time yet,

I'll be here around if you wanted me too.

Is so silent in the night,

and is so quiet in the breeze.

And my mind just non stop thinking how,

to make us back as the days we talked.

I'm looking forward and I prayed to Him.

Father, please take good care of him even

though he is normal, but cute, sometimes emo,

like to dance and sing, cries easily, and let

him in your warm arm.

That's all I hoping for.

是因为我太爱你 Cs I love you too much

2010-12-23T01:37:00.001+08:00

安靜

An Jing

Silence

只剩下鋼琴陪我談了一天

Zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo tan le yi tian

I had no one to talk to except for the piano one day.

睡著的大提琴

Shui zhao de da ti qin

The sleeping cello

安靜的舊舊的

An jing de jiu jiu de

Is quiet and worn out.

我想你已表現的非常明白

Wo xiang ni yi biao xian de fei chang ming bai

I think you’ve already made it extraordinarily clear.

我懂我也知道

Wo dong wo ye zhi dao

I understand and I know

你沒有捨不得

Ni mei you she bu de

You’re not unwilling to part with me.

你說你也會難過我不相信

Ni shuo ni ye hui nan guo wo bu xiang xin

You say it will also be hard for you, but I don’t believe it.

牽著你陪著我

Qian zhe ni pei zhe wo

You holding me hand and accompanying me,

也只是曾經

ye zhi shi ceng jing

That’s all in the past.

希望他是真的比我還要愛你

Xi wang ta shi zhen de bi wo hai yao ai ni

I hope he really loves you more than I do.

我才會逼自己離開

Wo cai hui bi zi ji li kai

Only then can I force myself to leave.

你要我說多難堪

Ni yao wo shuo duo nan kan

You want me to say something that comes very hard for me.

我根本不想分開

Wo gen ben bu xiang fen kai

I certainly don’t want us to break up.

為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過

Wei shen me hai yao wo yong wei xiao lai dai guo

Why must I use a smile in order to go on?

我沒有這種天份

Wo mei you zhe zhong tian fen

I don’t have that kind of ability

包容你也接受他

Bao rong ni ye jie shou ta

To tolerate the fact that you also accept him.

不用擔心的太多

Bu yong dan xin de tai duo

You don’t need to worry too much.

我會一直好好過

Wo hui yi zhi hao hao guo

I will feel better.

你已經遠遠離開

Ni yi jing yuan yuan li kai

You’ve already gone far, far away.

我也會慢慢走開

Wo ye hui man man zou kai

I will also slowly leave.

為什麼我連分開都遷就著你

Wei shen me wo lian fen kai dou qian jiu zhe ni

Why must I obediently go when we are breaking up?

我真的沒有天份

Wo zhen de mei you tian fen

I truly don’t have the ability

安靜的沒這麼快

An jing de mei zhe me kuai

My silence doesn’t come fast.

我會學著放棄你

Wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni

I will be learning how to let go of you.

是因為我太愛你

Shi yin wei wo tai ai ni

It’s because I love you too much.

**********************************************

是因為我太愛你

Shi yin wei wo tai ai ni

It’s because I love you too much.

***********************************************

对不起黑色幽默

2010-12-20T17:14:00.002+08:00

Missing

2010-12-19T00:03:00.000+08:00

It was so bright in the morning, and I was wondering where am I.

The day I woke up, my brain full of questions.

Firstly, what is the time?

Secondly, where am I?

Thirdly, what should I do next?

Fourthly, any schedule lag behind?

Fifthly, any person I will talk to?

But today, it is totally different.

My mind totally jammed...

But only you appeared in my mind.

Guess I really missing you.

Virtual

2010-12-15T21:03:00.002+08:00

The day we met,

In the virtual world

Where the day started to brighten you

Distance,

It doesn't matter us anymore

'Cos fate gonna make us together

Searching,

The feeling where you and I looking for

Where we afraid to get hurt again

Expression,

We got to tell each other

Which we called love

Lonely,

Is a process of life

Numb feeling will not happen again

That I promised

Happy or sad,

We are going to make it through

And here we make it no longer virtual....

領悟

2010-12-09T19:57:00.000+08:00

領悟

詞曲：李宗盛

編曲：Jenny Chin/Mac Chew(合聲編曲：黃秀偵)

演唱：辛曉琪(合聲：黃秀偵/李寶琦)

我以為我會哭

但是我沒有

我只是怔怔望著你的腳步

給你我最後的祝福

這何嘗不是一種領悟

讓我把自己看清楚

雖然那無愛的痛苦

將日日夜夜在我靈魂最深處

我以為我會報復

但是我沒有

當我看到我深愛過的男人

竟然像孩子一樣無助

這何嘗不是一種領悟

讓你把自己看清楚

被愛是奢侈的幸福

可惜你從來不在乎

啊！　一段感情就此結束

啊！　一顆心眼看要荒蕪

我們的愛若是錯誤

願你我沒有白白受苦

若曾真心真意付出

就應該滿足

啊！　多麼痛的領悟

你曾是我的全部

只是我回首來時路的每一步

都走的好孤獨

啊！　多麼痛的領悟

你曾是我的全部

只願你掙脫情的枷鎖

愛的束縛

任意追逐

別再為愛受苦

***************************************

感性的作词人

我流泪了

**************************************

前世今生

2010-12-02T18:57:00.000+08:00

做人很痛苦

我不要轮回

我不要继续

我想脱离了~！

今世做不完

下世又继续

今世做完了

下世在重复

重重叠叠，

反反复复

要到几时

才能可以

上回理天？

遗憾

2010-11-21T00:44:00.000+08:00

你我想通了吗？

还是在逃避着，

还是在面对着呢？

我不想变成你我的遗憾。

我只想跟你聊多几句。

明明

2010-11-20T00:58:00.000+08:00

因缘

因你我都遇见

孤独

因你我也拥有

爱情

因你我需放弃

明明

就彼此有好感

却因

我们无法解脱

伤痛

你我都在逃避

这痛

就让时间淡化吧

但我依然想念

你我之间的情

星期一

2010-11-15T10:50:00.000+08:00

http://suetsuet88.blogspot.com/2009/12/blog-post_15.html

曾几何时我是个奶爸
可是却找不到各奶妈

唉。。。
又是星期一。。。

因为爱

2010-11-14T01:11:00.003+08:00

有些事情我也说不明白

想和你在一起为什么舍不得分开

或许我软弱也害怕失败

但有你的笑容就能让我再站起来

你曾问我是什么令我对你难以忘怀

我也曾经想过这种感觉说不出来

我现在才明白

因为爱所以爱珍惜在一起的愉快

一分开你不在怀念空气里的对白

因为爱所以爱让我付出我的关怀

不管风吹或日晒我才明白一切都是因为爱

下雨天

2010-11-13T21:03:00.000+08:00

夜色黑黑

风儿吹吹

雨儿滴答

我在阳台

站着望着

脑力想着

你的笑容

让我牵挂

让我挂念

Feel

2010-11-13T15:20:00.000+08:00

The feel is here

curious but dunno whether is a trap

but yet

going

for you.

Release

2010-11-12T08:17:00.001+08:00

I just wanna give the F*** to all my shit work...

STRESS-nya~!

Sick

2010-10-21T23:45:00.000+08:00

So damn sick now...

And my eyes just keep closing..

asking me go to bed...

my brain stop producing juice to run the engine..

and the engine stop running and makes me like a nerd...

Hoping someone can come take care of me...

T.T

面具

2010-10-13T18:05:00.000+08:00

有人喜欢

有人讨厌

你要是喜欢

你就别讨厌

你要是讨厌

你就别喜欢

你就是镜子

你对人怎样

人对你一样

你能不带面具吗？

Great moment~!

2010-10-08T00:44:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah... \w/
I am gonna to say yeah...
'Cos I am happy...

BFF came over my place...
We went out together,
chat, talk, eat, movie...

How nice it would be...
Hope our friendship last forever...

dedicated to NgKL, LimAW, OhKK, HoYY...
Thank God,
You gave me to meet them...

And also we learned about looking palms~!
Hahaha...
Signing off with my new downloaded steam game~!

Retirement plan

2010-10-05T16:30:00.000+08:00

I was wondering what I am in the past seriously...
Talked to a bff yesterday...
He asked "What do you like to do when kids?"

Seriously I was wondering my thinking was to old
and I answered "Laying on the grass looking at the sky, counting stars..."

"Ow... that's retirement plan..."

Ya... 'cos I am tire of this world....
And what I wanted to is just rest and relax...
Do nothing...
Feel happy
Feel freedom...

That's all I wanted most...

Relative's Wedding

2010-10-04T00:43:00.000+08:00

In the noon, supposed the wedding dinner my dad going to attend but at the end I became the representative of him together with my grandma, and uncle...

Drove at 2.30pm, reached there at Rawang around 4.30pm...
And yet I thought is going to be served well and we are just getting ourself to full and cool our hot ass and leave.
But yet the story came....

Kampung people we called (Villagers) style in Rawang always late as I got confirmed from my far far relatives (actually is my grandpa's sister's son's son wedding...) wow~! that far man~!

This is what i feel during the ceremony... Too bad, I did not take any picture and gonna post it here anyway.
Just to tell some my personal feelings about Malaysian Chinese...

I felt so grace to meet my so elder relatives that she is able to live for 90+ years. That's great...
We talked to each other where I always talk to her when I came to visit her together with my family in the past. Dialect-ed in Hakka...

Soon, we chat, we talk............. until all the relatives came...
I was so shocked where more and more came...
And guess what i felt?
I felt so tiny, where I don't even know they were my cousins....
And I also didn't know I've so many far far away relatives....

Wow.... My grandpa's sister said to me "Da gao dou ng di dao heh qi qin" (Hakka)
It means when u come out fight with a stranger, mostly is your relative...
Gosh... I seriously can't remember all of them in 1 damn few hours night...

Younger generations are getting more and more stranger that most of us facing what you know?
FACEBOOK... ASTRO... HANDPHONE...
and yet we did not talk to each other (shy.... i felt) and we seriously just glare through each other.
That's it... and 1 more thing where I don't like...
The younger generation did not called i guess? or say Hello or a smile at least to the elders...
Guess what, maybe the generation changed too fast or because they born a bunch of kids where bunch of kids married and have bunch of kids... gosh~!

And yet, it is so hard to talk to an elder which is closed to you. I did always talk to my grandma at least,
and quarrel also :P
And so, to my grandpa's sister... we talked also a lot... And yet she remembered me so well 'cos i think
I talked more than the others except my dad's generation.... lol...

Just saying that I felt pity you know? I felt pity that, the generations are getting more stranger than ever that
one day we might not know each other are relatives... :'(

And yet... tiring trip and a full dinner... signing off with a cup of white coffee..

ISSA × SoulJa / Breathe

2010-09-30T02:33:00.000+08:00

ISSA × SoulJa / Breathe

Breathe ISSA×SoulJa 歌詞情報 - goo 音楽

我哭了

2010-09-25T02:56:00.002+08:00

想起你不原谅我

不见我

不联络我

我哭了~

Need You Now

2010-09-17T17:20:00.002+08:00

Picture perfect memories,

Scattered all around the floor.

Reaching for the phone cause, I cant fight it anymore.

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.

For me it happens all the time.

Its a quarter after one, Im all alone and I need you now.

Said I wouldn't call, but I lost all control and I need you now.

And I dont know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, cant stop looking at the door.

Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.

For me it happens all the time.

Its a quarter after one, Im a little drunk,

And I need you now.

Said I wouldnt call but I lost all control and I need you now.

And I dont know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Yes Id rather hurt than feel nothing at all.

Its a quarter after one, Im all alone and I need you now.

And I said I wouldnt call but Im a little drunk and I need you now.

And I dont know how I can do without, I just need you now.

I just need you now.

Oh baby I need you now.

回家的感觉真好

2010-09-10T20:45:00.000+08:00

开斋节的那一天，

和朋友们都一起发霉，

要读书又不是，

要找吃的也难。

很想回家哦~~！

午餐就吃了出名的鸡贩，

忘记拍照，

喝了椰子鸡汤~！爽~！

妈咪，我要喝椰子鸡汤。

再过一星期就是我的出狱牢房日。

呵呵~！

爱与不爱

2010-08-29T18:28:00.000+08:00

天天一起看海脱离现实的存在

我们牵手拥抱填满了空白很愉快

和你一起计划将来做你最好的依赖

但未来没有来打算打不开

沉默暗示你不想等待

当爱与不爱一样让人心痛

我们都无话可说

有过多少快乐就有多少痛都在揪着

当爱与不爱一样让人心痛

不要松开我的手

故事走到最后也许还没最后

不要带走你的天空

爱情已被现实摔坏痕迹都留不下来

我们像是小孩现在才明白

眼泪诉说你想要离开

当爱与不爱一样让人心痛

我们都无话可说

有过多少快乐就有多少痛都在揪着

当爱与不爱一样让人心痛

不要松开我的手

故事走到最后也许还没最后

不要带走你的天空

当爱与不爱一样让人心痛

我们都无话可说

有过多少快乐就有多少痛都在揪着

当爱与不爱一样让人心痛

不要松开我的手

故事走到最后也许还没最后

不要带走你的天空

The way of choosing life

2010-08-20T20:50:00.000+08:00

I've been suffering from the life which I don't really wanted to be...

Getting myself trouble getting well in academic,
getting myself better in relationship,
getting myself the best being myself.

Facing the choices that will decides my future where my career, family will be affected. Seriously, I don't wish to change anything 'cos I miss it. Friends who fight successfully together, the things I've deal with again and again. Seriously this is not my field. Called my parents still yet I dare not take out my courage to tell them what is mysituation now. Seriously, if I'm changing what they will think of me, and what will it be affecting my siblings' future?

I've been so tire of this life and wondering why do we need such things in order to survive in this society?
I don't get it seriously... Does getting rich will makes our life happier? Do we need so call 'certificate' to fulfil people's dream?

Doubts and doubts coming to my head. Is like my life been controlled by unnecessary things like 'cert', 'money'... Can I just get back who I wanted to be?

Tire the way of choosing life... Still this is what we call "MATERIALISTIC"~!

~Sigh~

I Don't Want to Miss A Thing

2010-08-12T16:32:00.000+08:00

I Don't Want To Miss A Thing lyrics

Songwriters: Warren, Diane Eve;

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing

Watch you smile while you are sleeping

While you're far away and dreaming

I could spend my life in this sweet surrender

I could stay lost in this moment forever

Where every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep

'Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do

I'd still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating

And I'm wondering what you're dreaming

Wondering if it's me you're seeing

Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together

I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep

'Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do

I'd still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile, I don't wanna miss one kiss

I just wanna be with you, right here with you, just like this

I just want to hold you close, feel your heart so close to mine

And just stay here in this moment for all the rest of time

Don't wanna close my eyes, don't wanna fall asleep

'Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do

I'd still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep

'Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do

I'd still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep

Yeah, I don't wanna miss a thing

Getting older

2010-07-17T00:40:00.000+08:00

Just having such feel to write it out...

Having meals with juniors...

Getting to feel myself even older...

But I never had a chance to get myself to rest

Even though my body is tire...

And I learned something from them,

SPIRIT they have...

I hope one day juniors becoming seniors

saw my post will have the same feeling

As days past by,

As we are getting older..

Surprise

2010-07-03T22:49:00.000+08:00

Got a funny call today....

Is a Malaysian phone number...

And "Hello?"...

"Wei, where are you?"

Surprisingly, i recognized the voice.

I stunned.

Is him, he is back from Russia to Malaysia.

And the end of conversation,

I scolded him because of hiding his arrival date and time,

so that he can avoid trouble that I'm facing.

A surprised call makes me so EMO today.

Happy + Sad the feeling I'm facing.

Happy to hear his voice, sad can't be with him.

I'm waiting to the days,

when my midterm break coming,

our promise that I'll come to your house,

I'll come visit you.

Thanks Joseph for being my soul-mate.

new kit coming soon

2010-06-23T00:38:00.001+08:00

Coming soon

来夜方长

2010-06-19T23:18:00.001+08:00

Meaningless

2010-06-13T08:07:00.002+08:00

"A place is only as meaningful

as the company you have over there.

Once the company is gone,

that place becomes meaningless."

quote from kennysia.com

跌了

2010-06-05T00:56:00.003+08:00

对自己说

跌了就自己站起来

日出

2010-06-02T23:27:00.000+08:00

很想找人陪我看日出。。。

Seindah Biasa (As beautiful always)

2010-06-02T01:03:00.001+08:00

Jalan pernah takut ku tinggalkan

Saat bintang tak mampu lagi berdendang

Saat malam menjadi terlalu dingin

Hingga pagi tak seindah biasanya

Korus

Takkan mungkin kita bertahan

Hidup dalam bersendirian

Panas terit hujan badai

Kita lalui bersama

Saat hilang arah tujuan

Kau tahu ke mana berjalan

Meski terang meski gelap

Kita lalui bersama

Ku tak bisa merubah yang telah terjadi

Tapi aku akan menjanjikan yang terbaik

Agar kita tak pernah menjadi jauh

Meski beza dermaga untuk kita berlabuh

Ulang Korus

Pernah kita jatuh

Mencuba berdiri

Menahan sakit dan menangis

Tapi erti hidup lebih dari itu

Dan kita mencuba melawan

惡作劇之吻

2010-06-01T23:21:00.000+08:00

这几天都麻木着，

收拾心情，

突然冲动，

重看Itazura na Kiss。

被感动了，

太美好的结局了。

太理想了，

一个无知少女祈求的美梦成真。

再想我那祈求的美梦，

能在现实出现吗？

附上台版--

惡作劇之吻

爱的代价

2010-05-31T00:22:00.001+08:00


梁咏琪:爱的代价
词:李宗盛 曲;李宗盛 

还记得年少时的梦吗

象朵永远不凋零的花

陪我经过那风吹雨打

看世事无常
看沧桑变化
那些为爱所付出的代价
是永远都难忘的啊
所有真心的痴心的话
永在我心中
虽然已没有他
走吧
走吧
人总要学着自己长大
走吧
走吧
人生难免经历苦痛挣扎
走吧
走吧
为自己的心找一个家
也曾伤心流泪
也曾黯然心碎
这是爱的代价
也许我偶尔还是会想他

偶尔难免会惦记着他

就当他是个老朋友啊
也让我心疼
也让我牵挂
只是我心中不再有火花
让往事都随风去吧
所有真心的痴心的话
仍在我心中
虽然已没有他
走吧
走吧
人总要学着自己长大
走吧
走吧
人生难免经历苦痛挣扎
走吧
走吧
为自己的心找一个家
也曾伤心流泪
也曾黯然心碎
这是爱的代价
为自己的心找一个家

也曾伤心流泪

也曾黯然心碎
这是爱的代价
也曾伤心流泪

也曾黯然心碎

这是爱的代价

學會好久

2010-05-30T11:39:00.003+08:00

再多也不夠
我離開的時候
怎麼依然無法說出口
學會好久
Aku Cinta Pada Mu

对你有感觉

2010-05-29T12:52:00.002+08:00

期待，等待，你我。

Kurage, Nagareboshi - Ai Otsuka

2010-05-28T21:09:00.002+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5TdSdNhoxZ0

遠いこの距離　毎晩のように
会いたくても　会えない頭のどこかにある
少しずれてるのかな　この星空さえも
あなたも同じように想ってくれてるの？

クラゲ、流れ星　見つけられたら
あなたの名前を　思い浮かべるよ
どんなイヤなとこ　知ってるのに
あなたのことこんなに　好きだよ

「恋している」そんなふうに呼ぶのかな
忘れようとすればするほど　欲しくなる
そんなにあなたとあたしは違うの？
どうしても二人にはなれない

クラゲ、流れ星　見つけられずに
あなたの言葉　もう忘れちゃいそうだよ
たった一つ信じている強さがあれば
苦しくなく好きでいられるのかな

クラゲ、流れ星　見つけられたら
あなたの名前を　思い浮かべるよ
どんなイヤなとこ　知ってるのに
あなたのことこんなに　好きだよ

人

2010-05-02T10:12:00.000+08:00

孔子曰：“吾日三省吾身”

对朋友，对家人，对情人，对任何人。。。

人就是感情的动物，

激动起来什么都忘记，

忘记了自己本来，

应有的纯真的心。

对朋友，有没有忠实，

对家人，有没有孝道。

对情人，有没有忠情，

对别人，有没有礼仪。

有时候，真的要反省自己，

对着镜子说你有没有做到，

对朋友，对家人，对情人，

对任何人作出背叛，羞辱。

但总被另方面捆绑着，

家人对情人，

朋友对家人，

别人对你，

你又对谁呢？

看着别人的争吵，

总觉得我是那个，

罪。

神佛是否听到，

我的心声？

我的痛处。

April Fool

2010-04-01T10:13:00.000+08:00

A great thanks for YY that mentioned to me the post previously was a FAKE..

What an April Fool is it...

Now that I realise that the power behind the Internet which only make uses of
one person and it can brings a lot of effects after all.

Maybe some news are true and some are not, here we need our critical thinking
which most of us have in it since we are big enough to know what is wrong and
what is right.

Lastly, happy birthday to April Fool-lies.... and to my sis... write again soon.

Energy wastage or recycling

2010-03-27T19:31:00.000+08:00

Turn off the lights for an hour today~!
And yet it brings the court case in the end~!

Money is that really matter?
Is that call energy wasting?
Logical sounds yes but do it really waste that much?

2012 is coming and still we can see
your action behind because of money...
Don't you feel like world end suppose you are with your love one?
And still you talking about money...

Is that money so important when comes to end of the world?
Or do we need to use money to buy a shelter when 2012 comes?
Trying to make sense...

UNICORN

2010-03-14T11:28:00.001+08:00

可能性の獣,希望の象征

Inori ~You Raise Me Up~

2010-02-28T09:50:00.002+08:00

urunda hitomi no oku ni kawaranu kimi no sugata "doko made sekai wa tsudzuku no" todaeta hibi no kotoba	In the depths of my tear-filled eyes, Is your everlasting beauty. "How far does the world go?" Those words from our bygone days.
kogoeru arashi no yoru mo mada minu kimi e tsudzuku oshiete umi wataru kaze inori wa toki wo koeru	Even on those freezing, stormy nights, Though you are still out of sight, I continue on. Please tell me, ocean-crossing winds, That my prayers will pass through time.
kasunda chihei no mukou ni nemureru hoshi no souwa "akenai yoru wa nai yo" to ano hi no tsumi ga warau	Beyond the misty horizons, Stars are fabled to lie. "Dawn will surely follow every night." The sins of my past laughs.
furueru kimi wo dakiyose todokanu kokuu wo aogu kikoeru yami terasu kane kimi eto michi wa tooku	I try to embrace you trembling with uncertainty, But I look up at the empty sky beyond reach. I hear the chime that illuminates darkness, Showing me that the path to you is still far.
kogoeru arashi no yoru mo mada minu kimi e tsudzuku oshiete umi wataru kaze inori wa toki wo koeru	Even on those freezing, stormy nights, Though you are still out of sight, I continue on. Please tell me, ocean-crossing winds, That my prayers will pass through time.
kogoeru arashi no yoru mo mada minu kimi e tsudzuku oshiete umi wataru kaze inori wa toki wo koeru	Even on those freezing, stormy nights, Though you are still out of sight, I continue on. Please tell me, ocean-crossing winds, Thatugh time.
inori wa toki wo koeru

埋怨

2010-02-27T23:17:00.000+08:00

等了很久，都还没解决，

等了很久，我都已闷了；

心淡了，人了了，

心灰了，我愧了，

心酸了，我哭了，

心累了，我死了。

Ipoh guys doing Ipoh trip

2010-01-11T23:36:00.000+08:00

Sorry dudes, no pictures was taken cos my phone is like....
u know sucks?
so din take any...

But going to tell grandma story here... (hope u wont sleep)
It was a best trip ever in Ipoh i feel...
Oh Gosh~!

10/1/2010 11.30pm - Msn rang, "Wei, wan go out 2mr?"
Definitely, yes! you know it was like growing mushrooms in the house for 2 weeks and
I got freedom for a day...

11/1/2010 11am - Wait at Jusco Kinta Cinty....
Have lunch, Amusement park

1.30pm - SHOW TIME
Having a good show but no meaning ~ OLD DOGS!
(Listening : I am all alone, I am so lost without you).... MY GOD~!
The Gorilla just making me non stop laughing.... and the killer penguins...

4pm - "Ei, I abit hungry leh....."

Suggestions over four of us......

Let's go tan sai gai..... "What is that?"
You know charcoal? You know steambot? Guess so you know what will be the thing...

And then reach there, we were the 1st customers..... JUST OPEN!

and we eat eat eat eat eat eat eat until 10pm... GOSH~!
4 hours... longest record in my life having steambot....
with friends i feel is short... Just wanna talk long...

"ZZzzzzzz.... Zzz........ My phone buzz".
"Hello not yet back ah? what time edi now ah?"
"No wo... late night gua..."
"You better come back now"
Mom's call.... no choice....

So we go "makan angin",
we saw nite view of ipoh, see AH GUA, see schools refresh memories,
and dunno turn whr turn to highway back to bercham, tambun, and pengkalan....

OH GOSH~! Thx God having bunch of friends for me... Precious it....

Participators: Oh Kah Ken, Yuan Shing, Ai Wyn, and me........
So lucky to be in ipoh... Proud of it....

Ipoh 38 years government worker

2010-01-03T13:26:00.000+08:00

怡市廳征聘反應超熱烈‧5萬人爭50空缺

2009-12-30 12:45

服務了38年的張富海（中）從羅西迪（左）手中接過紀念品；右是阿都拉欣。（圖：星洲日報）

（霹靂‧怡保）怡保市長拿督羅西迪說，怡保市政廳今年初在報章上刊登徵聘50名員工的廣告，結果吸引了5萬人來應徵，反應非常熱烈。

他說，目前有關空缺已填滿，接下來還有大約40個空缺，包括執法組人員和行政官員等，這些空缺料會在明年1月填滿。

羅西迪週二（12月29日）在頒發獎狀和紀念品給退休員工後這麼表示。怡保市政廳週二舉行退休員工歡送會，共有48名員工退休，其中年資最長者服務了39年5個月。

退休員工獲頒獎狀紀念品

48名退休員工中，39人是男性，9人是女性，32人為馬來人，2名華人和14名印裔，當中有12人已去世。

羅西迪促請市政廳退休員工加入在今年成立的市政廳退休員工協會的行列，以促進聯繫，如果退休員工有意做生意，市政廳能提供免費6個月的經營執照讓他們提出申請。

他表示，該協會以前市長拿督拉法依為首，同時市政廳已批准1萬令吉撥款給該協會，讓該協會進行各種照顧會員福利活動等，該協會目前有大約200名會員。

達拉查：工作開心也很投入

資歷最久的退休員工那達拉查（56歲）表示，他於1970年加入市政廳，當時他擔任傳送文件員，後來又擔任尋找資料員至今。

他表示在市政廳工作感到開心，也很投入，當年他入行時只領每月65令吉的工資，退休前的薪金是1500令吉。

他說，他育有3名孩子，大兒子是助理警監，二女兒在烏克蘭唸醫學系，幼子在八丁燕帶唸工程系，他們都申請到高等教育貸學金。

張富海：服務38年見證5任市長

退休員工中有2名華裔人士，他們是泊車組的張富海和執法組的阮怡光。張富海（56歲）受訪時表示，他在18歲加入市政廳直到56歲退休，共服務了38年2個月，他在市政廳裡工作得開心，與友族融洽相處。

他說，當初他加入市政廳時，每個月的工資只有百多令吉，如今退休前達到頂薪階段了。38年來，他見證過5任市長，退休後他在馬場兼職。

星洲日報／大霹靂‧2009.12.29

[quote: http://search.sinchew-i.com/node/467190?k=38年員工]

daddy, proud of you...

Study ~pls come mood~

2009-12-18T09:24:00.000+08:00

So which i can fly

in the sky

grabbing the air

breathing the air

is so relax...

Just done my assignment,

done with everything....

exam coming....

WHY WHY WHY

need exam?

STUDY STUDY STUDY

mood please come...

Really no mood... Haix...

PISS~!

2009-12-15T09:55:00.000+08:00

YOU KNOW WHAT IS TRUST?

YOU EVER FEEL BEING USED BY PEOPLE?

THE SMARTER YOU ARE,

THE GREEDY YOU ARE,

THE SELFISH YOU ARE,

THE EVIL YOU ARE,

THE SUCKEST YOU ARE,

AND I'M PISS OFF!

FUCK OFF!!

HOT~!

2009-12-13T12:13:00.000+08:00

How oven looks like?

You come my house you'll know....

想着

2009-12-08T10:54:00.001+08:00

好多年没见你，前尘往事没法逃避；

老朋友，你好吗？没有我日子好吧？

是否了无牵挂？

对你好

2009-12-04T12:50:00.001+08:00

对你好需要理由吗？

21st letter ~for FUTURE~

2009-11-24T12:09:00.000+08:00

Dear 21st Jameson,

Jameson, finally you reached the 21st year of you, i think there are much things to be done in the future yet.
What i'm going to tell you here is, a lot of things, there might be up and down as life is a climb. You might not get what you really want, but if no hard and smart work definitely you'll not get what you want.

And now, i'm very sure that you going to be like me in the future now, having a family with kids, having a great job, having great friends... Even i'm still facing problems like financial to support my family, parents, and a lot stuffs... Because I've never give up and given support by all the peoples connected with me... I won't bother what is past but i care what i have now and i precious it. Hope you precious the moment you have.

Even the world is going to end, still please do not give up yourself. Remember you list down the wishes you wanted to do? Even now i'm still doing on it... Although is a lot, yet i feel is worth to do that and it will be my memory till i no longer in this world.

Anyway, my kids and wife are calling me now... You'll never know how great is the future, keep it up!

Regards,
Jameson in FUTURE~

Nice poem ~ good job!

2009-11-16T01:21:00.001+08:00

here is a poem from a mail by a Cyberjaya campus student
it is fun and i want to share with all my friends!!!!

People who don't know MMU will have difficulty understanding but people who know, have a blast~

FOM buiding is big and dusty
Nice to see from the outside but cacat from the inside
The floor will be very watery after raining
You can learn how to drift with your kaki

FIT building has one mini grand hall
Transparent glass + good air con service
A lot of girls learn Yoga di sini
A lot of guys will pass by accidently

FOE buiding is a good place to keep fit
Air con service can help you to be more skinny
Fatties can keep fit for free
Skinny people like me will become mummy

FCM building is a good place to play hide and seek
the cafe tauke is so greedy
one chicken + vege + rice must be 4ringgit
also have to see him happy or not happy

Cafeteria besides the library has a lot of food that you can eat
you can't find any place has more flies compare with sini
chef here try hard to cook the food to be more tasty
but the flies oso try hard to 'pang sai' n pee

Swimming pool here is still new and pretty
but you hav2 pay Rm1 per entry
boys and girls cannot kongsi
all the guys are not happy
only the jaga laugh like crazy

MMU Cyber has a lot of trees
is an ideal place to live for uncle n aunty
every morning got people to play taichi
every nite oso got people to go for jogging
sometimes you can hear people shouting
thier mind stuck or because they cannot pee?
i only know i can't get a good sleep because of these monkeys

If you live in hostel you better pray harder
can you live without water and electricity?
sometimes your door can't open and you have to find axe to 'hantam' kasi jadi
hostel admin always say they will settle until the mosquito also sleeping

If you live in Cyberia then you are lucky
you will be healthier because you walk like crazy
the road to there is so gelap and scarry at night
a romantic place for couples and robbers.

No doubt MMU got leng lui
but those International student easily can let you 'si'
mangali also looks like Bollywood celebrity
Malaysian guys how to find girl friend di sini?

MMU also got leng chai
but leng chai here are Otaku
they like thier online games / anime more than anything
they dunno who is Jessica Alba but Nana or Dota is thier honey

Drivers here are well manners and friendly
they are lovely darling that should be awarded a kiss
they will wait for you to cross the zebra line patiently
unlike drivers in KL all so 'kia shu' and 'kia si'.

MMU is a good place to study
juz that the academic fees are scarry
you have to call PTPTN as your daddy
and JPA or Yayasan can be your mummy.

Lecturers here are good and pretty
especially the Hani Nakamura who teach Japanese language
too bad she is married and got people saw her walking with her little cutie son happily.
a lot of guy's heart break because of this.

I swear everything from the above is truth and no cheating
please don't sue me because i 'kia si'
MMU Boleh & Malaysia Boleh!"

P/s: i just want to share sumting vif my frens, pls dun sue me, coz i kia si =.=

Fat Ass~!

2009-10-31T11:13:00.000+08:00

Oh yes...

Yesterday night was the most enjoy supper that i've before

Going to Tenji Japanese Buffet

Having the Training Camp Appreciation dinner

Having walk together, shooting, talking...

kinda enjoy...

"Shut up, fat ass!"

An ironic sentence came from a mouth of a guy

who is slightly taller than me, with a tummy smaller bit than mine,

who holding a cigratte, having a guy partner walking with him.

I was so curios because i just talk loud as i'm afraid of height,

cos the walk way designed is jus piece of metal on top of the

few levels car park. And yet, i talked

and enjoy with my gang. And i saw two

of my friends are slow with the gang just felt

going to have a wait for them together.

When i turn around

"Shut up, fat ass!"

I was so shocked... Yeah... I'm fat... I got fat ass.... So?

You also fat what?

Or should i reply you,

"Shut up, dumb ass!"

Really he is a dumb ass that wasting his

money burning (cigratte), wasting his money

to clubbing... And yet... He dare scold people

"Fat ass"! just because he is educated with english. If there is another

gangster which have a style like me, I gonna see ur corpse big enough

on the newspaper next day!

Saying me fat, yes... but i'm going to change... We shall see how...

Words for day

2009-10-28T23:51:00.000+08:00

WORK SMART

NOT

WORK HARD

BORING~!

2009-10-27T20:02:00.002+08:00

so bored

Back to dead city

2009-10-25T01:15:00.000+08:00

Just heard my roommate say our government is going to change the so called "Intelligent city" and the government territory become a "GREEN CITY"

Funny noun and it can earns more money from planting trees... Nowadays quite need some money, can i help out? XD

Anyway, just back to my place where i stayed near my campus, and yet have to rush for the 2nd short trimester... Sadly, I was offered to buy a figure that i wanted to buy, yet I've to see my result if whether it allows me to buy or not...

And so, it was a tiring day, woke up at 6am, breakfast, train, lunch, meeting, home, cleaning, dinner, fetch people, home, cleaning and..... Is tiring in conclusion....

Tommorrow somemore need to vomit money to buy my stuffs...

"Money money, here i come again....."

End here....

Where will our money spent?

2009-10-21T11:53:00.000+08:00

Okay... This is quite a fed-up post either a dissappointed post to the lately news in our country...
Let see how we use our income in our normal life... Let say we have RM3k income...

(1)   parents         500
(2)   rental            300
(3)   daily usage items       150
(4)   saving                       100
(5)   bills                          200
(6)   petrol                       200
(7)   watever tax/debt      200
(8) food      350
   total :     3000

and that's it our 3k gone for a month....

and see how our government use our tax....

(1)   2 Acer Laptop    84640    (market price: 4500)
(2)   1GB ThumbDrive       ??? (marker price: 90) even less than that
(3)   Few chairs                 35760
(4)   Few tables 23720
(5)   Few equipment 3450000
(6)   Few books      358476

and total is???

* source from Nanyang newspaper and Oriental Daily News newspaper date 21/10/2009

And yet we are working like hell to earn our money for living and yet they can use such expensive and "durable" items for their "future".

"The reason the price reported is because for the future planning packages." the supplier said.

Just wanna to ask how is your future planning packages looks like? Maybe i'm interested in it... Why don't you introduce to us rather than them?

And so this is it to proof the corruption of the government in our country... Shame on us... Sad :(

Bachelor Language (Hons) Rude Words...

2009-10-19T15:38:00.002+08:00

Holiday!!!

2009-10-19T14:07:00.002+08:00

Is been a long time i did not update my blog...
and now updated with my new theme for my blog
which I wanted to do so long ago due to busy of my final exams....

And now i'm having a two-week-holiday which for me is so so...
Cos too boring... Either become a maid, or a driver, or a pig...

Eat, sleep, play... Or facing computer doing nothing....

=3= I'm going to do something man...
And Happy Birthday to my friend.... NANA!

And Happy Holiday to all MMU-ians,
Happy Deepavali to all indians...

So long... be right back...

The Climb

2009-10-19T10:41:00.000+08:00

The Climb
Miley Cyrus
Songwriters: Alexander, J; Mabe, J;

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

Lazy day

2009-09-15T05:55:00.000+08:00

I wish i can know him earlier
I wish i can make friend with him earlier
I wish he can always be my side
I wish he can always accompany
I wish he will be the forever one
I wish he is ......

My assigments!
Get the hell fuck out here...
YOU SHIT ASSIGNMENTS!

Progress updated!

2009-08-25T11:50:00.000+08:00

Tonite midterm test! Gan-jiong-ing!
Haix!

New Kit

2009-08-23T20:26:00.001+08:00

Finally,

MASTER GRADE 1/100
GUNDAM EXIA IGNITION MODE

I was so busy that
I still do not have the time to fix this.
And yet,
assignments and tests
are coming soon...

Wish me luck!

An introduction to GUNDAM EXIA

GN-001 GUNDAM EXIA
(upper: AD2307, lower: roll-out color AD2306)

Unit type: general purpose close combat mobile suit
Code name: GN-001
Overall height: 18.3 meters
Overall weight: 57.2 metric tons
Equipment: GN Drive, Trans-Am system
Armament: GN sword/rifle x 1, GN long blade x 1,
GN short blade x 1, GN beam saber x 2, GN beam dagger x 2, GN vulcan gun x 2, GN shield x 1
Pilot: Setsuna F. Seiei (aka Soran Ibrahim)
Mechanical designer: Kanetake Ebikawa

Source taken from :http://www.mahq.net/mecha/gundam/00/gn-001.htm

Ultraman Funny Commercial

2009-08-22T13:21:00.000+08:00

This is the good thing about Japan advertisement...

Nice shot! Hear carefully (my fren all stunned...)

Marrying?

2009-08-14T23:31:00.000+08:00

A flashback suddenly, my best friend asking me when both of us in the hometown, came out for GI JOE. He asked:

"Ei, when are you going to marry?"
"Why suddenly ask me such question?"
"No la... Just asking... Future ma..."
"O... ok... erm... dunno leh... still young to plan what, maybe not so fast lo"
"Means when?"
"30 or after ba... Should be there lo..."
"Wah! So late..."
"Why? I feel ok wo..."
"Dun lo... To late edi, earlier a bit la..."
"For what?"

That's the quote of our conversation. I was thinking when i'm going to marry. Was I to idealistic? Thinking to have one very good wife, have couples of children, and a happy family? Now I even finding a girlfriend or maybe i should say i'm yet to be single and not even experienced for the first time. What you think?

我知道

2009-08-09T12:48:00.000+08:00

我知道
by2
TWINS

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n96NZwX9rK4

作词:于萱作曲:于萱

从来没想过不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过骄纵以为你会懂
一直忘了说我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过

从来没想过不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过娇纵以为你会懂
一直忘了说我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过

曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头
我多希望你还在我左右

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头

答应你我会好好过
不让这些眼泪白流

GI JOE

2009-08-06T19:48:00.000+08:00

Imagine you have a superb boys' toys on your own

and show it to your friends.

Wow!

Is like the shit using superb weapon which i damn like it so much!
The ships, guns, girls... wow! i can say...

I was having a meet with my best friend which back from Russia for holiday.
Excited yet, i've being shoot from the beginning till the end.
Then we go for the movie, having lunch in Sushi King...
Shit! Forget to take picture.... Maybe next time....

And yet after the meeting i went to take my new specs.
and i feel so "young"! Hahaha...

Or maybe say adorable =.=
This is the 1st time i admit i'm "cute" actually.
Maybe yes,
but i hate it because treat me like kids just because of
my hairstyle i having now
and also the size of my body...

Anyway was a tiring day...
Having new specs to write my blog now is just using up my energy i got cos is really uncomfortable at first...
And is tiring...
My eyes really need some rests.
So it ends here..
Nite...

SHIT CLS!

2009-08-05T22:17:00.000+08:00

Just having chat with my sifu
he said:

"i dun like the cls now...
but i will try to do wat i can to bring them bec
although nt much bt at least i try"

SHIT! My sifu doing such thing and
as his student is so ANTI-CLS now...

Yeah... It is right but i still considering about that.
Previously some committees find me back for teaching the mandarin class organised by CLS. But i temporary rejected as it is totally like a piece of shit which is all prepared nothing and approach me. Even the lecturer (advisory panel member) asked me to teach the students, and i just say

"Lao shi, i think i reconsider 1st,
see how they work the flow only i decide la...
temporary reject only... hehe"

and i'm so so regret even lecturer asking me to go back to help them.

" I HATE IT "

I hate such CLS things which give me nothing at the end but even worst things happened on me previously. Is already a big lesson but why still people keep on asking me? What is so special about me in CLS? Tell me why God. Should i continue on?
If my sifu there, should i help my sifu out?

Tears keep on dropping while writing, chatting with my sifu.
He is that bad to stab me using a sharp knife.
And yet
He is alone i think. He is the 1 thinking like that so far.
And yet
I think he needs my help. I think both of us can make it.
And yet
Should I?

Letter to CLS

2009-08-03T00:40:00.000+08:00

Dear CLS,

It is finaly the end of the camp that i went for you. Is the final event though for me cos personally i think there are few people around me who are willing to work together as a team to make sure this chinese cultural will continue on as the people of chinese.

As in the camp, I was incharging of the secretariat part and yet almost became the camp leader. From here i know doing such "extra" thing will not let yourself to be tired and so it will just cross over the lin until one day you will get how difficult to maintain a team by your own.

I was incharging one of the courses as with my another colleuge. And so he is my friend knew each other since in Alpha 2006. The 1st guy i make friend in MMU (don't count ex-housemates). And i would thank him for helping me so much because at the end i don't think so i did well in helping to find courses or preparing. Sorry and thanks.

In the camp, both of us invited a YB for a talk. The talk was interesting but is too influence which may lead to failure of critical thinking. As for the seniors, i slept less than 3 hours per night during the camp because of chatting with seniors from you. They are so aggressive to talk and yet helping me to analyze the problem that i faced before.

I called my "sifu" in the camp these few days. I cried for the 1st day because i was so pressured and very tire. I was so sicked and i was so angry that my very good camp leader just leave a call to me saying that you are "temporary leader" for the camp even there is a asst. director/asst. camp leader. Why would a secretary will do such things even in the meeting while need me to chaired it? Should it be this way? Or because i'm too good? (Trying to think my own...)

The camp was going smoothly for the pass 2 days. I was so releaved that all my colleuges were in here helping me. Not just helping but saying that take very good care of themselves for their own distributed courses. Thanks a lot once again.

3 days 2 nights in SSL (PJ), vegetarian food was the best ever i ate before. Everyone keep on saying that i like the auntie from the kitchen just because i'm familiar with her since last training camp. Is so annoying but just for jokes... Ha ha... Nice food anyway... And i need double for that duration... FAT AGAIN!!!

I do learn a lot anyway, and thanks for the opportunity and sorry to all for what i did in the camp which hurting you all... By telling this, is the end and wanna say "bye" to you.

Regards,
Jameson.

BIG BIG SURPRISE

2009-07-27T02:33:00.000+08:00

Dear,
TAN MEI KEE

Big big surprise
for you,
hope you like it...

:)

From,
Jameson

Oh baby...

2009-07-25T01:25:00.000+08:00

“Oh baby，
当晚与你记住蒲公英，
今晚偏偏想起风的清劲，
回忆不再受制於我，
我承认，
回忆也许你的。”

听这首歌，
让我想起我的回忆。
让我想起，
我以前给人，
最好的。
怪我还是怪她，
还在迷糊当中。

我都记得，你呢？

I, Will Become a Bird.

2009-07-22T16:11:00.000+08:00

Boku wa, Tori ni Naru.
Vocals: Hitomi

When I just can’t find my way
You are always there for me
When I am out of my way
You are always there for me

Like a bird in the sky
You set me free
You give me one heart
Like a star in my night
You’ll always be a part of me

When I just can’t find my way
You are always there
You are always there
You are always there for me

In my darkness dreams
I hear you call me
You give me the reason to live
In my dirty heart
I hear you call me
And you reach out to carry me away

No one can save my soul
Only you

Like a bird in the sky
You set me free
You give me one heart
Like a star in my night
You’ll always be a part of me

Kurai tsuki anjisuru
Sono hikari no saki de wa
Futashika na sonzai no
Boku no yume ga umarekawaru

Isogi ikiru kedo
Gomen ne

Tori ga sora o tobimawareru you ni
Boku wa jiyuu ni ima nareru n da

Boku wa jiyuu ni ima nareru n da

Tori ga sora o tobimawareru you ni
Boku wa jiyuu ni ima nareru n da

Like a bird in the sky
You set me free
You give me one heart
Like a star in my night
You’ll always be a part of me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j5FsacVvKRY

Midterm tests

2009-07-20T09:30:00.000+08:00

Midterm tests around the corner
and
i just study that little which is
not
really enough...

3 papers going to kill me
and yet i not yet ready
to defend...

Sadly,
I still got meetings, assignments..
and I
GOT NO TIME!!!

Yo! This is DJ Jameson...

2009-07-18T09:35:00.000+08:00

Yes!
I'm now officially a DJ...
quite nervous that time i did in the interview...

I was waiting for the result...
and i was in the meeting...
and i wasn't informed that was a event for the newbies...

In the end,
I called my friend which is my senior too...
And also talked to the manager...

And yet!
YES!...
So happy and yet to be frustrated...
Tons of assignments, meetings, reports,
and i wanna time study...

Sigh... Life is just hard...

Lancelot Ablion

2009-07-15T19:02:00.001+08:00

Introducing
my new kit
Robot Tamashii
LANCELOT ABLION

compare with anime

Nice kit!

1st DJ experience

2009-07-15T02:01:00.000+08:00

1st time i enter the radio room;
1st time i talk in front of the committees;
1st time i saw the technical machines;
1st time i ever talk in front of the mic;
and talk to all..

I was so nervous,
and i prepared a lot infomation
that pointed by the committees
and i can't really finish it...

Even i question the interviewers
they also stunned a while...

Sadly, hopefully, i can on-air again
and this friday for the results...

Thx for the support...
Loong, Wong kok, Lenx...
And also interviewers Ngoi Khey and Khei Foong
and thx Joseph...

DJ 1st experience... NICE!

Sudden flash...

2009-07-13T23:11:00.000+08:00

"暧昧，
让人受尽委屈；
找不到，
相爱的证据；
何时该前进，
何时该放弃；
连
拥抱都没有勇气。"

Suddenly my mind
keeps on rewind and rewind
this song...

Just thinking back
what i did last time,
Am i so stupid?

I wish i can tell you,
I wish you can hear me,
and say.
"Yes..."

I dare not promise anything to you,
but i will try to get to you,
and say
"Anta no koto sukidesu"

Love melts the Ice

2009-07-10T23:48:00.000+08:00

Ice Age 3:
Dawn of Dinasour

Just watched it
with my friends

Something inside
touches me
Family
Friendship
and
Love

Just to say
I precious them
and I would tell my friends
I Love You

My family members
I Love You

And so the one
I Love You...

H1N1 attacking Cyberjaya

2009-07-10T08:03:00.000+08:00

Not really free on these few days cos of a lot of
meetings, activities, and classes, assignment...

Too tire to update my blog,
and so you can see me my updated date is not frequent
as last time...

And my mom yesterday called me...
"Ei, just now hor, i watched news
saying that 12 person from
XXX company in Cyberjaya
infected influenza,
so you better don't go anyway ya..."

I recieved this call when in the meeting
and everyone is shocked when got this
latest news...

My heart started to be
uncomfortable and yet I tell myself
I wanted to live!

Preventing it,
drink more water,
eat more vegetable (best become vegetarian)
eat more fruits, (no durian please)
wash ur hands always,
sleep earlier (best before 12am)
and go for sports... (I miss out this... =.=)

Ok... Time's up...
Got to catch up with my things...
Next time...

Happy Birthday Bro!

2009-07-08T01:15:00.000+08:00

WANTED!!!

BIRTHDAY BOY
DATE: 8-7-2009 (WED)
VENUE: OLD TOWN CYBERJAYA

IF FOUND PLEASE CONTACT 11TH CNYE

Interesting pictures and videos
is now in
FACEBOOK!

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=645495608&ref=mf#/album.php?aid=137348&id=645495608&ref=mf

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=645495608&ref=mf#/video/video.php?v=140309160608&ref=mf

Strenght

2009-07-07T09:51:00.000+08:00

Just read one of my friend's blog,
I totally agree with her...

Sometimes it does,
sometimes it don't.

Because of that,
It strenghten relationship
between us...

Neverthought
I will end up with them.
And,
It is always the best team,
I ever have in my life...

11th CNYE

BUSY!!!

2009-07-06T22:58:00.000+08:00

DAMN busy these few days...
After going to the ceremony for 2 days continuosly,
come back for classes, clubs, and many other things...

I can say "Life is hard!"
But hope I can go through that!

Tiring and my brain stucks....
So i'll stop here.. Nite...

Optimus Prime Rocks!

2009-07-03T03:22:00.000+08:00

This is the time when i watch movie till midnite because
everyone is watching it and the earlier slot tickets were sold out...
This is such a terrible scene....

And my friend i just hanging around in Alamanda and just
walk walk walk, eat eat eat and game game game...

Just reminded me the virtual-on....
I believe most of the youngsters dunno what's tat...

http://vo-force.sega.jp/

It is quite a famours game in Japan and
still the figures came out not long ago i guess...

And so we waited long for the Transformers...

Break records

2009-07-02T00:23:00.000+08:00

News are showed in The Star and every student's mouth non-stop talking about the hit news...
Lecturer was charged to the court of offering student money for passing a subject. Such a stupid act that the lecturer did and stupid student for accepting the offer. I do failed a lot then so what? I'll dare you will not be proud of yourself before you die.

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/7/1/courts/4227862&sec=courts

This is the first time i stayed in campus for 12 hours. BREAK RECORDS! From 12pm to 12am... I can't imagine besides classes, i will stay back do society things but not study. That's the "great" part... It sucks actually. Giving me stress and a lot things not finished on time. I doubt tommorrow morning lab i can wake up early or not.

Tire and not much energy left... Here is it and next time...

Buzy day

2009-06-30T01:20:00.000+08:00

I just had my meeting in my house with my friends... and now suppose is my sleeping hours... my head is so heavy and yet there are still tons of things need to be done. I was wondering how people do such work so called "Multi-taksing"...

Don't really care so much about that, just pray that tommorrow i can wake up for class... (Planning skipped but no one helping me sign... Sad)... Nite...

Pain-full Friendship

2009-06-28T21:06:00.000+08:00

I was whole day doing nothing but have some aches in my stomach and head... I don't really know what i did today but just sleep, eat, and dramas.... Such a wasted day... Anyway don't talk about my life today...

My memory is not that good as people which can remember people's name even though more than 2 years together. A secondary school ex-classmate came and talk to me in MSN one day.

"Chang Fei ah... You still remember me?"

I seems to forget a lot of faces since i came to University... I can't really remember what i did, who i am actually in the secondary schools. From psychological view, I might faced before a terrible memory which makes my brain to wash out almost all my memories in secondary school. Compared to primary schoolmates, i do still remember better than secondary schoolmates. Unfortunately, it is a truth i think.

A guy who willing to do whatever for his friends, even death... I talk to this to my best friend before, i think he won't even remember that doubt. I was a guy which loyal comes first which i have been always hate betrayals... Thank God, I do still remember some until i was lost contact and 1 day i been found again by my secondary schoolmates. So far, my best friend (my secondary schoolmates too) is the only one i contacted my own; the rest i don't even really care although there is still someone who i'm waiting for his forgiveness.

Of a sudden, the scene cames in front of my eyes. I knew him since when we were Form 2 and i sat beside him, admiring him... At first i was a dumb guy and slowly... One day, he told me that i followed him just because of using him. This words from his mouth and is always remembered in my mind. Yes, my mind at first was to learn from him... I wanted to be like him... I wanted my parents to know his son is not usefull. And yet... i feel guilty... I was so frustrated to my own... Until now i can't even explained well to him...

Not saying this is a confession to him but i wanted to tell all of my readers and my friends... I'm really wanted to be your friends but not others as i'm so regret till now i don't think so he wouldn't have forgive me...

"I'm sorry, XXXX XXXX XXXX."

Is weekend...

2009-06-28T01:13:00.000+08:00

JAVA.... WHY.... WHY...
I hate it when the compilation gives me such things that i've never seen before...

As you can see... supposingly that i typed the following Java codes as in the lecture notes but it ends up no background... Was the notes fault or the compiler fault? FXXX off... I'm tire of this...

Nevermind, today my friend from Melaka campus came find me and we have our good meal...
Guess what, i can't really eat oily food as i have to keep fit... I forgot to picture it... but i got the sample of it... This is what my friend ordered...

It costs around RM30 for the meal... It was so nice to eat but when comes to pay, your heart is like stabbed with a knife used to cut the fishes in Manhattan Fish Market...

Thought having movie after this, but "Minta maaf para pelanggan GSC, ticket bagi tayangan hari ini telah jual habis kecuali Reservation sahaja. Terima Kasih." OMG... This is the first time heard it in Alamanda... And end up my friend slept on my bed for two hours... Thought would have sleep together with him (NOT GAY DEFINETLY... BROTHERHOOD!!!) but my single bed doesn't allow to do that.. And I'm again become more and more tire than before...

I just had my dinner with cooked-oat again... And suddenly a senior msn me... I didn't really concentrate and yet i just started my dinner only. I called him at the end... Bla bla bla...
And he asked me to do something for him... Ha ha... I was wondering how his friend finding a form from the university online server so long while he didn't reply my senior... Pity my senior doing ITP now... So i chose to help him as i do like help people...

And it comes the end of another weekend... Nite... Zzzzzz...